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So the boyfriend is coming back in a few hours’ time. God help me. I don’t know how I am supposed to handle this.

Met a best friend earlier at Macdonalds. And after listening to my story.. Well what can I say, he knows me best. He truly does. He’s seen every possible state that I could have possibly been in. And was never away when I needed a listening ear.

And he’s right. The only way I can be sincere is if the one I’m in love with really treats me like I’m the one. I need attention. It might be too much, but I love it when my boyfriend gives me all the attention I don’t necessarily need. It makes me feel wanted and loved.

I love it when he’s proud to tell people who I am. Without having to feel awkward or more noob-ish and feeling like it makes him look like less of a man. I love it when he tells me he loves me and that no one else matters.

I’m in love with someone else now. And he’s not my boyfriend. Yet. Well, maybe. I have a new fear. He’s too much of a person who hides the fact that he is capable of love. He doesn’t let people see that he has that capability. He shows it in silence most of the time.

I realized that this needs a little getting used to. 

It makes me abit fearful.