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I guess the drama might drive him away. However I am not really bothered by it because to me, it isn’t drama. It’s life. Maybe, just maybe, he still has alot to learn about life.

I am a girl who thinks alot about it. And I take every situation seriously because I’m a realist that way. I don’t like running away from things even though sometimes it seems like the best thing to do because you won’t have to make yourself face it. It just means you’re running away from reality.

I love him very much. I’m not going to hide who I really am. Because the next time I get into a relationship, I want the guy to love me for me. Not for who he wants me to be or who he thinks I can be.

Nothing is dramatic if you don’t make it to be.

I’m just insightful about these things. It adds color to life. I am complex. I wonder if he knows that.

One thing that bothers me, though. Is how he views things sometimes. I guess throughout all his years he’s been too occupied with his conquests with girls that it doesn’t leave him much room for pretty much anything else.

Which is why I also understand why he feels paranoid about certain aspects of my lifestyle. Having guy friends or whatever. Being a socialite kills sometimes, I know that. But I love it because I love people for who they are. I do have my own conquests as well, I won’t lie. But that isn’t the focus of why I do what I do. I have real friendships along the way and friends mean alot to me. Be it male or female. And I can’t compromise that for someone else.

Cos in the end, it’s people that moves us along. Nothing else.

That doesn’t mean I don’t make him the centre of my universe. He really is.

He really, really is.